I could say that being diagnosed with Lupus has allowed me to see things in a different light. I could also say that I now see the beauty in the world, but I don’t. It has hit me like a ton of bricks. I fight everyday to pull those bricks off and move through my day. Lupus will never go away. Neither will my sinful habits or idolatry. These things plague me but, there is a cure for those. The more I seek God’s wisdom the more I see the strength he is giving me each day. He is persistent in his pursuit to transform me even when I can take no more. My past has taught me to hide but my responsibilities today wont let me. There is an ongoing battle raging inside me and Lupus is at the forefront.